So once I had calmed down from my frustrations I took a little time to go back through my blog and realised that not only have I been neglecting it, that I have neglected to tell any of you about anything that has happened to me in the last while, so here is a bit of a recap.
The boyfriend that I had mentioned in a few posts is no longer a part of my life. We have broken up. I guess there are some things in a relationship that are just too great to live around. I thought we could compromise on things like who wants kids and who doesn’t and in what city we hope to live someday. But it turns out that these were the very things that tore us apart. While these things aren’t an issue now, what is the point in continuing a relationship that so clearly has an expiry date for us?
So I am once again single and trying to remind myself who I was before I was a part of a “we”. It’s allot harder than you think. I work long hours and get home late, but even so, those evening hours use to be filled with him and now that there is no him, I have no idea what to do in those hours where normal people are sleeping. I have no idea how to fill this time that I have created in my life. I can’t go to sleep before 11pm and I get up at 6am. There are allot of waking hours to fill.
He is being a little bit childish after the breakup. Not how I expected things to go, considering he was the one who ended it and according to me, we ended it on good terms. He ignores my parents when he sees them in public, like just completely pretends that he has no idea who they are. Then I texted his when I heard his gran had passed away. Told him how sorry I was and that I would be thinking of their family, Do you know how he responded? He responded with an “Uhmm… thanks” text. You know the one, that text that you send to people in awkward situations when you really have no idea how to respond to them. Yeah one of those texts.
I still have a bunch of his stuff at my house and I was planning to go and drop it off for him, but with all his childish behaviour I kinda feel like telling him that he can ether fetch it or it becomes mine. But does this make me as childish as what he is? What would you have done in this situation?
I have taken up ice skating as a hobby. The new ice rink opened in our town only a few weeks ago. It’s been fun, trying to find my balance and not break something in the process. I am getting lessons from an old professional skater, but I think she has the misjudgement to think that I might someday be good. I am aware I will never be good. I don’t have the time to put in the work that would be required of me… that, or the money. But even so, it has been fun. A new activity that was never something I had done with the ex. Something that is just mine.
My granddad who had been in remission for cancer, found out it had returned a few weeks ago. He has had his voice box removed and is now back home recovering well. It’s typical for our family, just as we think things are going ok, they find a way to fall apart.
C’s (My daughter / cousin) dad is dating this new woman. While I have no issue with her really, I do have an issue with the fact that my little kid pitched up looking like a 10sents hooker with way to much makeup and heels that were way too high for a kid of her age. I blame the new woman for giving her the makeup and clothes that was needed to pull this look off. When did it become okay for kids in their preteens to dress and act like adults? Did I miss the memo? Looking at the way she was dressed when I saw her, I could understand how men in their young 20’s are being arrested for sleeping with underage children. Our children are misleading the men into thinking they are way, way older than what they are! I am disgusted in the generation we are raising.
The two wedding I had told you about, are over and done. Being a bridesmaid for each of them came with its drama as can be expected. However I am so happy for both of them. It’s great to see how happy they are with the lives that they have chosen.
A girl that I had been best friends with in high school married and just had a kid with the boyfriend who abused her for as long as I can remember. Not physically abused but mentally abused. Is it wrong that I hate her for the life she has chosen? She is a smart girl who wanted to be a nurse someday. Instead she is a cashier, married to another cashier. Please don’t misunderstand me, I am not saying being a cashier is a bad thing, but how do you raise a kid on the salary earned by two cashiers when I am barely taking care of just me on my decent salary? What kind of life are they offering that child? What opportunities will she ever have? I swear, some days I feel like people should take an IQ test before they are allowed to reproduce.
I have discovered this new antique store that I have fallen completely in love with. They have a bookstore with more old books than I have seen in ages. Is spent hours there on the day we found it, I probably would have spent even more time there if I wasn’t with my mom who really gets bored looking at a bunch of books all day.
Aaand now I think I have bombarded you with enough information for one day. Although I think this is far from informing you about everything you have missed.. I guess that gives me a reason to tell you about it again tomorrow.